The girl on the inside

1. I am not who I appear to be at all.
2. I'm not that sweet little innocent girl that everyone thinks I am. I never have been.
3. I'm almost always nervous.
4. I hate being alone. I always want someone, but never have anyone.
5. I'm a total sucker for hugs.
6. I have a secret passion to sing. I'm pretty good too.
7. I hate making decisions.
8. I'm an over-thinker.
9. I want someone to want to help me. I can't ask for help anymore. It hurts too much.
10. You'll never meet a broken girl with a bigger smile.
11. I've mastered this fake smile of mine. I'm fooling all of you.
12. My heart hurts 100% of the time.
13. I long for nothing more than to be normal and happy again.
14. I love the winter months because it's easier to be depressed then.
15. Oddly, winter is when I'm at my happiest. That's never much.
16. I'm overwhelmed with life.
17. I'm so simple, yet too complicated.
18. I just want to be loved.
19. I'm too forgiving.
20. I would never choose this life for anyone.
21. My Savior feels distant.
22. I miss my real friends.
23. I feel boring and annoying a lot of the time.
24. I struggle with self-confidence.
25. I'm beyond broken.
26. I want to talk, but I don't want to do all the talking.
27. I'm not who I want to be.
28. I want to be a part of something bigger, something epic.

Now, you know. This is me. It's not who you want or who you expected.

"So tell me now if this ain’t love then how do we get out? ‘Cause I don’t know. That’s when she said 'I don’t hate you, boy. I just want to save you while there’s still something left to save.' That’s when I told her 'I love you, girl, but I’m not the answer for the questions that you still have.'"