I'm quite overwhelmed with my emotions and just all that's going on around me. I'm a thinker, so I'm always aware of my feelings and opinions. One day, I hope that some good will come of it. As for now, all I know is stress, frustration, and bitterness.

I'm misunderstood and I want someone to reach out. And not just reach out, but reach out consistently. I'm unmanageable. I'm confused and I want your affection.

I'm weak and my habitat only contributes to the weakness. I hope something worth while comes from living here, but I just don't see it.

I'm almost emotionless. I'm torn. I'm confused. I don't know what to do. I've been avoiding trying to seek the answer. I don't want to run anymore. 

I can almost feel my end approaching, but I'm fighting it. With all I have, I'm fighting it. Now matter how much I want to, something inside of me won't let me give up. 

I know in my heart that God must be teaching me something through all the pain I am experiencing, but I don't understand. Faith is hard for me sometimes. I just want to know. Tell me what to do to further Your kingdom. I also know it doesn't work that way. I must be patient and wait. But, God, please. Please. I'm crying out to You with all that I am. Guide me. Put a desire in my heart to know You more and more each day. I don't want to be apathetic anymore. I want to be Yours. Give me more strength and reason to continue. Send someone? 

God, this is my prayer.

Give me hope and love. I need it. I need You. You are mighty and powerful. I know You can do anything. I want to be molded by You. Make me your clay, dear Potter. Make me obey. Mold me. I want to be who You want me to be. I want it to become obvious that I'm living my life for You. Clean me. Make me whole again. Make me wholly Yours.

Love,

Your daughter